After many months of seeing may fave mpa (fave person), I have lost total perspective of what is realistic and where things can lead. When you enter this MP world, you are looking just for some fun and attention and then go on your merry way. When you step beyond this and allow yourself to give up your heart and have strong feelings for the mpa, you had better be strong enough to withstand the eventual pain when your heart gets crushed.
Even though countless numbers of you warned me, my brain tried to listen but my heart ignored all of you. I am guilty of this and it is all my fault for giving up my heart and soul to that special lady. I am the only one to blame, not her, for wishing for more than a friendly relationship. It is my fault for this constant ache in my heart from the void that is left there. It is my fault that she is constantly in my thoughts and my dreams. It is my fault, at this time, that I cannot be just a friend and a client until I pick up the pieces of my shattered heart.
But please note that I am and never will be a stalker...if anything, I now have the resolve to say goodbye and leave her alone.
I guess when you meet someone so special, you lose sight of what is realistic as you cannot believe how incredible the experiences you have with that person have been.
I only wish you the very best in life and love, Tarah.
When and if I ever get over you, I hope to see you again as a friend...but hopefully, by then you will be out of this industry and on to bigger and better things with the man of your dreams. Sweet dreams baby, you deserve the best.