Dear Surgeon/Ricardo/Nail, please stop this, it is embarrassing. Look up the term Simp, then dedicate yourself to being the opposite.
Spa world is built on a foundation of lies, fantasy, delusion, and deceit. The best ladies are genuine to the degree that it fits their personalities, but not an iota beyond that. Personal feelings only add to their damage or yours. And don't doubt that there is damage, or think you can cure it. Please get to a better place and leave your delusions behind.
Amber shares that same smile and vibe with a good number of men each and every day. It is an act, a good one, and she delivers a good experience to most of her less disagreeable customers. But it is all transactional, and money is the universal solvent, and it erodes the heart and soul of even the most well-meaning amongst us, both the sellers and the buyers.
My Dad used to go to Vegas in the 60s, and one time he saw Wayne Newton, and it was amazing. He interacted with the audience, seemed so down-to-earth, and actually cried at the end telling the audience they were the best ever. Greatest show my old man had ever seen, and he was as sentimental as a rock. Next day he roped a couple of his crap shooting buddies to take a break from the tables and come to the show. IT WAS THE EXACT SAME SHOW, NOTE FOR NOTE, SONG BY SONG, AND ANECDOTE BY ANECDOTE. HE EVEN CRIED AT THE END AND SAID THE EXACT SAME THING.
You have a thing for Amber, great but it has run its course. Let it go. Respect her decision, but first and foremost respect your self.