UsefulIdiot
Known Reviewer
At Candy Spa a couple of years ago I had a session with an MPA that was recommended to me. She was young, pretty and new to the game. I did what I could to make her feel comfortable but there was an awkward shyness to her. We ended up in cowgirl and after a while she seemed to relax and get into it. I looked up and her eyes were closed and she seemed to be off in the clouds. I realized she got past her shyness by just disappearing into sensation - I could have been anyone, even a big teddy bear with a dildo. However she got into the business, be it as a sexually enlightened person making a living from doing something she liked, or a person in a sad situation with few choices, she coped by owning what she was doing.
During sessions I too like to lose awareness by disappearing into sensation. This is both indulgent as well as self-protective - intellectually you know this 25 year old is only with you for the money, but you hope that they like something about being with you. Occasionally real moments do happen, especially with women you see more that once in two months. They might enjoy the sex, or more commonly, they really do want to please you, not just get things finished. Money makes things artificial, but humanity sometimes breaks through.
During sessions I too like to lose awareness by disappearing into sensation. This is both indulgent as well as self-protective - intellectually you know this 25 year old is only with you for the money, but you hope that they like something about being with you. Occasionally real moments do happen, especially with women you see more that once in two months. They might enjoy the sex, or more commonly, they really do want to please you, not just get things finished. Money makes things artificial, but humanity sometimes breaks through.